Me, Dissected.

I REALLY wanted to post every day. I knew that wasn't going to happen, though. Its just been so BUSY, and STRESSFUL lately. Still is. I don't have tones of time, but I will leave this here. I just found out that there IS a personality type I belong to. This is BIG news for me, because I have always felt like some Time Lord, but human.. Therefore a freak. I'm good at anything I like to do. I notice almost everything. I see through people to the bigger picture and generally step right up into leadership without asking. people WANT me there, but the idea of controlling people scares me.  I SENSE things. Its Ood. I mean Odd. Doctor Who has messed with my mind. Its like a memory tickling the corner of your brain, saying hey, do this! you don't know WHY but, you do, and its Right. some call it psychic, I wonder if it is actuality me unconsciously noticing and processing information. I have a link to the site I found, but I need to say all this in my own words.

My strengths (not bragging, this is THEIR words here, not mine!):

• Good communication skills (actually... I don't know. I can communicate WELL, but don't know when my point has been made. So I over emphasis thinking the person needs me to go over it AGAIN to understand. supposedly one of my traits is thinking people just don't use there brains enough)
• Very perceptive about people's thought and motives (BURNING BROWN EYES STARE INTO YOUR SOUL. -12 Confidence, +4 Fear)
• Motivational, inspirational; bring out the best in others (they tell me so at least.)
• Warmly affectionate and affirming (I like to think so)
• Fun to be with - lively sense of humor, dramatic, energetic, optimistic (I certainly hope so. My sister says she envies my ability to make friends. I don't know about that, half of them are 'buddies'. I have few TRUE friends, which is what I so dearly want)
• Strive for "win-win" situations (always)
• Driven to meet other's needs (Its litaraly HURTS to ignore the pain of others. I get depressed just thinking someone I know MIGHT have once been depressed and I could have helped. :p)
• Usually loyal and dedicated (Usually?? D: Great, I'll randomly wake up one morning and betray those I love :p )

My Weaknesses (Of COURSE this list is longer :p):

• Tendency to be smothering (Ehh.... I like to show I care, is all! I LOATH the comparison, but I'm like a dog, I guess. If you let me, I'll do anything to show I care, all the time. Good boy Steven. NO! Down! DOWN! Your all muddy!!)
• Their enthusiasm may lead them to be unrealistic (hey, sometimes your dreams are better than real life, ok? Like my last one. All I remember is waking up, but while I was still at the edge of the dream, I was invited to a knitting contest. Generally not caring about knitting but not wanting to show I lacked ANY skill, I politely declined with: 'Thanks, but I will knot get tangled up in this!' watch out, world, this kid's wit is just as sharp in his SLEEP!)
• Uninterested in dealing with "mundane" matters such as cleaning, paying bills, etc. (GUYS I FOUND WHY MY SPELLING'S SO BAD. I just don't CARE :) )
• Hold onto bad relationships long after they've turned bad (Ouch. Bad memories here. Very true. Very, very true. I just cant let things die. I love life to much to see what once was good, now however twisted, wither away like it meant nothing. Like I meant nothing, Like she meant nothing to me. She DOES now. But I cant let go of wanting to prove I once did... )
• Extreme dislike of conflict (Isn't that GOOD?? :) Saving the world with flower power! Not FLOUR  mind you, I'm gluten intolerant.)
• Extreme dislike of criticism (Hey can you blame me? I don't see many people begging to be verbally cut to pieces :p )
• Don't pay attention to their own needs (I can be selfish just like anyone else! That last HERSHEY bar is MINE. Also, I'm EXTREAMLY jealous of the ones I love. Woe to the guy that dates my sister. or my little cousin. But then she counts as a sister :p  )
• Constant quest for the perfect relationship may make them change relationships frequently  (Cant say I relate to this. Hopefully I never will. I intend to get it right from the start. Live a long happy life with my wife and kids, settle somewhere shire-like in my grandfather years and live to be ready for death when it comes. This is AFTER I save the world a few times, of course. How else do you expect for me to MEET this perfect girl??)
• May become bored easily (Story of my life! I have 47 GIGABYTES of half finished grand projects. Animations, Drawings, Books. but seeing how much time and love went into each, I cant DELETE them. I just no longer am interested in working with them. they bore me. ON TO NEW IDEAS!!)
• Have difficulty scolding or punishing others (This is true. I always try to soften the blow, rendering the lesson ineffective. My poor wife wont get much out of the 'Do you want DAD to deal with this??' threat. my kids would BEG her to give the punishing to me. I would scold them and give them all candy to make them FEEL better.)

Annnnnddd its 12:00 as I write this. I need my sleep. I've been getting very little lately. I have no internet now, So I'll post after school tomorrow.