I don't want to love anymore. I don't want to wake up in the morning, and have the heart ripped out of me all over again. Here is the thing. I'm an extrovert. An EXTREAM extrovert. Being extroverted means that you get all of your physical and mental energy from the people around me. But the thing is, I do, and I don't. In reality, I lean on PARTICULAR people. I the general mood of a room doesn't do it for me when the most important person in the room to me is trying to avoid me. I like her, and she likes someone who likes someone else. Typcal highschool drama, right?? But it doesn't make it any less painfull. Augghhh the DRAMA, PEOPLE. But, every now and then, when the wind blows right, I catch the barest sent of a happy life for me in the future. A cozy life, where people know that I have run with darkness and they don't care. A life where I don't have to wonder what I said to make people avoid me. So in summery here is touch of wisdom for my readers.
A: Don't date in highschool. I know your lonely but seriously, what are you going to do? Give and receive heartbreak? Have sex and get pregnant? Face it, it's not going to end well.
B: when you feel lonelieness and hollowness creeping in, stand up, give yourself a little warmup shake, turn around and with a big breath, be happy and smile back at it! Seriously, being happy isn't hard. Dance through life, and smile at shadows. Your single, be happy. Think about it, your FREE. You don't have to deal with impressing your love interest, you don't have to keep up a relationship, and your uncommitted. You owe loyalty to no one. Its really not a bad way to live, independent on others. Happyness is a gift you have to give yourself
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