The Doctor knows, anyway.


"The most compassionate people you will ever meet, empathics, and the loneliest.  I mean, exposing themselves to all those hidden feelings, all that guilt, pain, and sorrow and…"

Isn't there a way to shut it OUT?

 

Celebrity Crushes

You know, I never was one to go all crazy over celebrity crushes, but if I had to come up with a top 5 list of celebrity crushes, it would look something like this:

5: Emma Stone. Only as a brunette. She doesn't look right blonde... But those EYES

4: AnnaSophia Robb. She's HUMAN. And all the more beautiful for it.

3:Karen Gillian. I love red heads. and Scotts. and freckles. She's got it all.

2: Emma Watson. Not only is she beautiful, she seems to be a fabulous person. Until very recently, she was number one, but Jenna takes no prisoners.

1: Souffle Girl. I mean Jenna Louise Coleman. Its not just that she's gorgeous, but she is the most bouncy, witty ball of happy energy that has ever been called human.

Oh hey. the pictures are Landscape, portrait, landscape, portrait, landscape. I love symmetry!

Note to self. Do not have quiet, sad piano music playing while you look through everyone's prom pictures trying not to be bitter. Its counterproductive.

Lately I have been struggling with loneliness a whole lot. To the point where I send my friends tons of messages late at night for them to see in the morning. A good way to lose the friends i have, yo be honest, but I gets so LONELY I just have to talk to someone, even if they don't respond. This blog doesn't really fix that. Facebook messages, on the other hand, have this WONDERFUL little gizmo that tells you that the other person has read your message. Its brilliant. Anyway, about that main point I had. Every night, i lie awake and soak in the cold. When your 17, your bed is a lonely place at night (and if its not, then maybe it should be). Anyway, at dinner, I opened my fortune cookie, and I swear those things are starting to get creepy. Lately they have started coming true or just providing well timed bits of advice. Anyway, it read:
                                        Book lovers never go to bed alone.
How appropriate. And as little as that's worth, It's all I need, for now. I am content. Oh it wont last, because nothing save human (or time lord. Actually, a dog would do wonders.) company can truly stave off loneliness, but its a big help. 

Love

                                      I talk of love like I know what it is, but have never truly seen it.
                                                  I long for it and yet make no effort to be lovable.

Clever

                                          ''It's one thing to be clever and another to be wise.
                                                 A grain of truth exists in all the best lies.
                                        The wise wield truth and the clever find ways around
                                                    All of the laws the wise have found.
                                                   To be clever or wise, which is better?
                                     To dodge trouble when it comes, or avoid it altogether?
                                           But wisdom comes from losing, far cleverer to win.
                                                    There is wisdom in learning to bend.''

The Sum of The Parts That Sum Me Up is Me

There are two phrases, that sum me up quite nicely


I say so much, but really say so little. And what I didn't say is often more important than what I did.


The Truth is black and white, and I like to color.

The Doctor

" Because I've seen him. And he's like fire and ice and rage. He's like the night and the storm and the heart of the sun. He's ancient and forever. He burns at the center of time and he can see the turn of the Universe... And he's wonderful"

Fall

Why do we fall, Bruce? To get back up again.


Sometimes, everything fails you. Your friends pull away, your family doesn't see or doesn't care, and you fail yourself. your life crumbles around you, everything going wrong at once. Everything you do and say is wrong, everything you touch is eaten by your corrosive touch. sometimes, we hit the limit of what we can do, and its nowhere near enough. But I'll keep going. I wont give in, because that would mean everyone who jeered and never believed in me wins. I will get back up, and keep going, even if I cant. The end doesn't matter, because I WILL make it. I always make it.